Like Mandy I watched my husband suffer through cancer. I remember the day Jim was diagnosed like yesterday. I got him settled in the recliner and then I went up to our bedroom, locked myself in the closet and cried. I felt like my heart was breaking in two! Our future flashed before my eyes and I was scared. I knew I had to be strong for Jim and the kids. This was my time to cry out to the Lord. I prayed that if God chose not to heal Jim that He would take him swiftly because I did not want him to suffer. I prayed that God would carry our kids and that I would be sensitive to what they needed. I prayed for myself that I would be bold. I did not want any regrets. I wanted Jim to feel so loved and cherished always from me. God answered my prayers. I left the closest that day with such a calm, knowing that God was and would carry me. From that moment on Jim and I decided that no matter what we would see the positive in each day. We began to voice our blessing for each day on our Carrying Bridge page. When some days got real tough it was the "blessing of the day" that got us through. Our friends and family held us up through prayer and we felt covered by God's provision for us each day. It's through the hard times that your character is refined. Jim from the beginning said "God is good no matter if I am healed or not." I praise God everyday for His healing! Jim got to walk our beautiful daughter down the isle. Each day is a gift and we have learned to live each day to the fullest without regret. I don't know what I future holds but I do know who holds our tomorrow. Amy